Ever felt something so close to your
grasp, but you can’t reach it? I have, many times. One of them is for a girl I
liked which I will describe later on in the chapters. A brief background about
this girl was that she was the one who inspired me to continue writing my
stories. The one who gave me care and attention followed by kindness and
understanding.
One day during our gaming group, I
decided to ask the question to her. Whether she likes me or not. Over the days
as I wrote my stories, she supported me every step of the way. I started to
grow feelings for her as I saw something so beautiful in her. Even though we
are on the opposite side of the world, I would like to know if I could
potentially role play date her in our online gaming.
The time came and I asked her the
question. Very straightforward and very honest. This was my first time asking a
girl that I liked. I believe it should be a straight and clear question in
order to get a truthful answer. She said she liked me as a friend without
doubt, but a relationship was something she wouldn’t like. She replied a no and
I respected her decision. Still unsure of the current relationship we had as friends,
I wanted to know if we would still be friends after that conversation. She
replied yes and I was very grateful that our friendship was still intact. She
means a lot to me because she’s one of those people who comes into your life
and leaves a footprint in your heart. I never really knew her real name, just
the gaming name. A name is a name and I will never forget this special girl.
That is a promise I have made.
After the chat was over, I was
getting very emotional. I cried silently as I reflected on the conversation
that I had. As you can assume, I had my body armor off when I had the
conversation. So any shots that I take will hurt a lot. I wonder if I should
put my armor back on, but then I decided to leave it off. I want to be the real
me. After some tears, I looked at the positive. I still have her as a friend. I
can still talk to her and see her daily on the gaming chat. For that, I am
grateful. I closed my eyes and went to sleep feeling that there was still
goodness in the world. That there was still hope after I’ve been turned down.
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